Monday, December 30, 2019

Post Christmas, Pre New Years

Had DH family (mom and dad, sister/BIL, 2 brothers) Christmas meal Saturday.  We had roast pork and ham.  Then we all split up the sides.  DH mom has said she is not doing the cooking anymore.  I can understand - she is 85 this March!  So, sister in law did the 2 meats and I did scalloped potatoes, Waldorf salad and deviled eggs.  The potatoes tasted fine, had a slight sweet smell to them...I did not realize until today that I had used unsweetened but vanilla almond milk.  Haha, what an idiot!  Oh, well I am not sure anyone really noticed.  We had so much yummy stuff.  I also did a version just for me with dairy free cheese substitute.  I just had some for lunch - pretty good.

Today I finished moving the dirt (and bulbs) from my raised flower bed that we had to move for the new fence we are having built.  Then I raked a bunch of wet leaves from our little yard and piled them on top of the beds (I have 3) to help insulate the bulbs and prevent weeds.  It was good the leaves were wet, hopefully they will stay on the beds and not blow off.  Bad because they were hard to rake!  It has turned cool here...and windy!  But still not supposed to get too cold yet this week.  That is good news, I am hiking 13 miles New Years Day!

Then I came inside and cleaned the house.  Did couple loads of laundry.  The dogs were running around and now they are napping.  DH is playing golf with his cousin.  I declined since I am doing yoga tonight.  I played DH and one of his brothers Friday at a challenging course 45 min away.  It was nice and I did ok.

My yoga instructor is out of town for 2 weeks, so I am taking advantage of a $21 for 21 days unlimited yoga...the only problem is I have to drive 30 miles.  Oh well, the price we pay for living in the boonies.

I am sitting here enjoying the view of my living room picture gallery.  Maybe I have posted before, but just in case.  Here is before:
Here is after.  I wanted to lighten up the living room.  I am sure the deer head is not everyone's cup of tea.  But it is DH and he is proud of his hunting and enjoys outdoor stuff.  He does not get to display most of his rustic, antique and old-timey stuff, so I give him the deer head in the living room.  It happens to go with our other rustic themed pictures. 

Have a great week and if I don't make it back here.  Have a Happy New Year.  Quiet night at home as usual for DH and I.  We are going to enjoy nachos and wings.  I will go to bed early for my long day of hiking NYD.

Thursday, December 26, 2019

Christmas 2019 over, readyfor new decade!

We had a wonderful Christmas.  Warm, got up to 68 degrees!  We drove an hour for dinner with my sister and her family.  Took the convertible.  Had a nice lunch.  Drove home to check the dogs and then enjoyed another drive to DH cousin.  They served a nice dinner also, I just took some cookies and candy I made.  People really seem to enjoy home made goodies and so I enjoy that tradition.

I hope you enjoyed your Christmas.  So much negative in the world, petty arguments, superficial social media, negative media and corrupt politicians and agenda serving media, greedy coporate policies.  I enjoyed church service with my friend last Saturday and midnight mass in my own town.  I am vowing to take time to touch base and focus on my spiritual journey and take time to enhance my mental state of mind and recalibrate when things are bothering me and I just plunge on ahead and ignore when I should be listening to myself more.  The world seems crazier and crazier, all I can control is my part of it.  How I interact with the world and what I reflect.

I love this time of year when we reflect on the last year and think what we want to do going forward.  And now that I am not working, I mean to really relish this process.  From my house to yours, Merry Christmas and Happy New Year...Happy New Decade!

Two of my cute doggies.

Saturday, December 21, 2019

The winter solstice time is no longer celebrated as it once was, with the understanding that this is a period of descent and rest, of going within our homes, within ourselves and taking in all that we have been through, all that has passed in this full year which is coming to a close... like nature and the animal kingdom around us, this time of hibernation is so necessary for our tired limbs, our burdened minds.

Our modern culture teaches avoidance at a max at this time; alcohol, lights, shopping, overworking, over spending, comfort food and consumerism.

...and yet the natural tug to go inwards as nearly all creatures are doing is strong and the weather so bitter that people are left feeling that winter is hard, because for those of us without burning fires and big festive families, it can be lonely and isolating. Whereas in actual fact winter is kind, she points us in her quiet soft way towards our inner self, towards this annual time of peace and reflection, embracing the darkness and forgiving, accepting and loving, embracing goodbye the past year.

Winter takes away the distractions, the buzz, and presents us with the perfect time to rest and withdraw into a womb like love, bringing fire & light to our hearth.

.. and then, just around the corner the new year will begin again, and like a seed planted deep in the earth, we will all rise with renewed energy once again to dance in the sunlight

-Brigit Anna McNeill

Friday, December 13, 2019

Well I Have Been Lazy Posting

Not really sure what has kept me away.  Maybe I am just busy running here and there, little projects around the house.  Nearly every day either gymn, yoga or a hike.  I hiked Tuesday 6 miles with the hiking club.  It was a chilly 27 degrees when we started out.  We took photos of frost flowers and ice cycles.  The official hikes are finished till spring but the members continue to hike almost all year here and post "impromptu hikes".

I was feeling really good about taking off a few pounds up and even right after Thankgiving.  Then I guess my awareness strayed and I took my foot off the accelerator and I feel I have gained a few - too scared to get on the scale.  I will continue to restart my determination and continue to put effort into looking for recipes that utilize veggies and lean meat and try to continue to avoid sugar.  I have not had much sugar, but I did get a little lax and have enjoyed some potatoes, corn and flour.  When I take these out, I know I will lose, it is just really a focus and intent that I have to really strive for.

This weekend will be difficult, my sister and I are driving to the city to see our Granny and our aunts.  We will pick up lunch for Granny.  I will just commit to something like Panera instead of burgers/pasta and we are doing a Mexican restaurant with the aunts, but they have a wonderful vegetarian fajita that I LOVE.  Then Sunday we are beyond excited that my sister's friend gave us Chiefs football tickets and after that a concert - so it will be a full day Sunday.  Monday we drive home and the weather is not thrilling me - chance for rain/snow.

So I will be back here next week.  Hope you have a great weekend.  What holiday fun are you all out there planning?

Monday, December 2, 2019

Happy December!

I am mainly just happy the sun is out today!  We have had about a week and a half of gloomy, gray raining AND WINDY! days.  I woke up at 5:30 am Thanksgiving to drive 4 hours to see my Granny and it was 36 and raining and 32 north, where I was driving.  I decided to call off my trip.  I know she was relieved, cause she worries about us.  My sister (and niece and nephew) were going to go, we were disappointed, but used the extra time to sleep and relax.

I went ahead and got up, I was wide awake.  DH and I just had a quiet day at home.  His family celebrates on Sat after Thanksgiving, every year.  So, we had a nice visit and meal Saturday.  Then, we ate 2nd helpings before the family from the city drove back.  It was in the 60's when they left Sunday.

One of my favorite things to do with Thanksgiving leftovers is to make bone broth with the turkey leftovers.  I take the entire mess and put it in my crockpot with water up to the top and I slow simmer for 24 - 36 hours.  Then I pour into a large container, strained with a sheet of cheesecloth.  I then dispose of the stuff and rinse out the cheese cloth and I freeze the broth.

Today I froze half and used half the broth to make a yummy soup of sautéed onion, yellow squash and zucchini.  I ALWAYS have to look up how to spell zucchini!  Anyone else?

I just flavor it with salt and pepper and rosemary.  Then after it has simmered 30 min and all the veggies all soft and tender, I use the immersion blender to blend it all up.  So good!

I gotta get back on the bandwagon of no sweets, less carbs, less processed food.  After all, I am training for Christmas!

Thursday, November 28, 2019

Happy Thanksgiving!

We had to go to plan B today, big chef salads and cookies I baked for inlaws' get together this Saturday.

The weather forecast was a little iffy, but when I got up at 5:30am to drive 4 hours to see my Granny for the day (DH staying home with our new pup), it was raining steady and 37.  I checked the forecast and was almost guaranteed that we would encounter some ice.  NO THANK YOU.

So, we are enjoying the dog shop, some Netflix and a fire in our woodstove.  Hope anyone reading has the sort of Thanksgiving you want, quiet relaxation or a house full of family.

Saturday, November 23, 2019

Thankful for friends

My friend, T came down from the city.  We stayed close to home while the tree trim guys cut down few more trees in our fence row and took all the brush piles!

I made us couple homemade pizzas for munch.  Then we did a bit of shopping around town.  I bought a shirt, T bought a cute desk. 

I fixed us some taco soup in crock pot.  We watched a cute Netflix movie "Holiday in the Wild".

Now chilling on couch with my pooches and a fire.  Hope you are warm and toasty where you are!

Friday, November 15, 2019

Today I am thankful for my partner in projects, my DH.  We both really love this crepe myrtle in front of our house (2nd picture)  Big bright pink flowers.  Very full and healthy.  Just not the location.  It got so big this year that it crowded both our front patio and our front walkway.  It just could not stay.

So, we had to rake through 2 layers of decorative rock and cut through landscaping fabric and move it all to the side to access the roots.  Then we dug and dug and had to cut a bunch of roots, just to get it loose at all.  Then we tried out our winch and it pulled it right out.

We then dug a huge hole in a suitable area of our yard and dragged it to the new spot and dropped it in.  Then we went to the nursery to see what sort of decorative small tree they had that we could put in front of our house.  We did not have a lot to choose from, but they had this interesting weeping blue cedar and thought it would look nice.  We just hope it does ok.  I really wanted a Japanese Maple, but the lady at the nursery said they don't like full/all day sun.  So we went with this selection.

I like how it does not over power the front of our house (1st photo).
Hope you have a great weekend!

Thursday, November 14, 2019

Nov 14, Thursday Hike Day

I went hiking with my hiking club  today.   We stayed local and did a muddy 3.5 morning hike around a lake.   Weather was cool but clear.   About 21 of us.

Then we had quick sack lunch and drove to nearby park for afternoon hike.  We did 4 miles in the woods.   Since we were on bike trails and in hills, not muddy.

I am so grateful for pretty places to hike and nice group of people who share their time and hobby.

Tuesday, November 12, 2019

Nov 12, Soup-er Tuesday

Today was still very cold, but at least sunny.  I got up and went to the gymn around 8.  Took me about 20 min to get all the ice off my windshield.

I have really tried to watch my diet and work out 5 to 6 days a week...have been weighing for staring on 3 weeks, have lost 1 pound.  Geez.   I know sometimes it takes a while for scale to move...ugh.

At least I feel good about my choices, my tummy feeling good and good sleep, no hot flashes, less aches and pains,  clearer head...

Today I made a big pot of beef vegetable soup.  Like my DGM made it.   And fixed DH yummy loaf of bread.  I am thankful for the abundance in my life that causes me to exercise restraint!  God is good.

Coffee with friends tonight,  then Netflix and chill.  Stay warm out there!


Monday, November 11, 2019

Nov 11, Happy Veterans Day

Today while I am grateful for our Veterans,  I am also very grateful for a warm house and no where we have to be today.   It is 25  degrees and freezing rain here in the mid south.

I am still so sore from pulling and sawing weeds in the fence row, between that and the bad weather,  I am skipping yoga.  I will make it up on Thursday.   I AM committing to the gym tomorrow.

Stay warm and

Saturday, November 9, 2019

Saturdays

I told my DH upon retirement 2.0 that I was going to work out a schedule so that I plan for chores and household tasks, time with my DH and our dogs/hobbies, relaxation and sleep equally.

So far, this us working well.  I get up and ho to the gymn 3 or 4 times a week, then I do shopping or house cleaning,  then afternoons we read, fix dinner, watch TV, etc.  We both agree that we want to enjoyvoyr weekends as always.   I might walk outside with the dogs versus the gymn...if I want to wear pjs all day and watch TV or read, I will.

Today I listened to my audio book while working outside.   Sometimes I listen to podcasts. I need to structure in more time for blogging - a nice dilemma.
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Today I ran errands,  then worked in the yard...taking, cutting down tomatoe plants, my peonies,  etc.  Mulched our raised beds.  Was pretty and sunny today.

I am grateful for my yard today.   I took a break from working on my last 10-12 feet of fence row, it feels like I strained some muscles pulling Friday.

Hope to do little more yard work tomorrow before it gets yucky and cold.

Friday, November 8, 2019

Nov 8, Friday Favorites

I skipped the gym today since I knew I was working hard on the fence row today!

I am grateful for pretty sunny days!  It was cold and rainy most of the week.  We have had several fires in our woodstove.

I now have 7 giant piles of brush we will have to dispose of now...oh well.

I am enjoying the book Summer of '69 by Elin Hilderbrand on my audio library books, Secrets podcast and at the gymn I heard a group I really liked called Black Hesrt Saints.   Try their song Lines.

DH and I are enjoying Jack Ryan on Netflix.  Last fall and winter we binged Dexter, Shameless and Game of Thrones.   This winter we are going to watch Downton Abbey.   We also like Heartland.

I am enjoying a lot of veggies right now roasted,  sturdy fried or put into soup.  I am also enjoying 'smoothie bowls ', sort of my own creation.  I blend frozen veggies, kale or spinach with protein, almond milk, chia and flax seeds,  then I top with fresh fruit,  almonds and raisins.

I have been really trying hard, I weighed at the doctor's office about a week and a half sgo... it was ugly.  Not much diff on scale yet, but I feel much better.

Tuesday, November 5, 2019

Nov 3, the wind and me

Sitting on my front porch waiting for prospective buyers for my side by side.  I have been working on my fence row, so I am too dirty to wait in my house, lol.

We are waiting on a quote from fence people, I am cleaning out brush that I can handle.  Pictures soon!

It is sunny and beautiful.   Windy.  I am noticing how distinctive the wind sounds in the fall.  Leaves rustle in the trees, the skitter across the driveway and down the street.  Nice.

Today I am grateful for fall.

Nov 2, is today Saturday?

I am thankful for a paid off house.  DH and I spent time at my SIL store.  She hadholiday open house.  Not a lot of traffic.   I took frosted sugar cookies.

Then we came home and washed our side by side ATV.   We have people coming supposedly to look at it tomorrow.   We are offering it for sale.

I am going to continue to downsize    I got rid of 12 large plastic totes last weekend
.  My sister has a lot in storage.  They are building a house slowly.  She can use them while in transition.

I am grateful my house us paid for.   Money us much tighter with me not working,  so that's hard.  But we have options.   Pray my side by side sells, could really enjoy s

Nov 4, Shut the Front Door

Today I am thankful for our property.  We have 1 acre.  The lot is about the width of a standard city or suburban lot, but going back to a very deep back yard.  It backs up to our back neighbor's large back yard.  So, we don't have the view we used to have in the city subdivision, but we at least have a nice big yard and big beautiful trees and a nice bit of sky for a view.  Not bad.

Since my older male dog passed, we are getting another bigger dog for our newest dog to play with.  But, while visiting the animal shelters, I came across another small male Chihuahua and had to have him come live with us.  He is sweet.  I will post a picture of him tomorrow.

The point is, since we will have 2 larger dogs, we are going to fence in the entire acre.  This is only the short front side on each side of the house and one long side length.  The short side in back is already done and one long side on the south is already mostly fenced.  Part of our problem is the length of the south side is all grown up with weeds and trees and vines.  So I have been working on this for weeks and it is slow because I am doing by hand.  I do not want this stuff to grow back, so I have been pulling by the roots when possible, cutting with long prumers and sawing the stuff I can't get in the long pruners.  With a hand saw.  It is tedious, but I enjoy the physical workout.  

Today, I post a picture of my sweet Chico who passed just a few weeks ago and I whom my DH and i miss so much.  He was our first dog as a couple and I am so grateful we were his people and so grateful he made it to live in our retirement house for a year.  RIP Chico, we love you.

Friday, November 1, 2019

November 1

I am committing to writing one thing a day I am grateful for.  Today plumber came by and helped me with outside faucet that has run hot.   All summer it was causing my gas hill to increase when I watered all my jew plants.  Kept putting it off calling him...expense, hassle,  I was away working so much, contractors dont show etc.

One, okay 3 calls this week...he shows up after one no-show.  Shows us valves prior owner had installed behind washing machine.   Boom fixed!

Today we will be spending most of the day in our attic (me) blowing in 20 'bales' of insulation.   What fun!

There’s a Swedish proverb: “Shared joy is double joy; Shared sorrow is half a sorrow.”  I am thinking in context of sharing work, and reaping the benefits. 

But we will be so relieved and happy this is finished.  I am sure it will be a real bonding experience!

I am so grateful for our home we love, roof over our heads and a partner to share the load of maintaining it!

Happy November 1st to you!

Tuesday, October 29, 2019

This blog done rushed and little proofing.   I am starting week 3 of retirement 2.0.  Very busy.  Working on yard, couple projects for fall, deep clean house, have company,  lost our older make dog, putting up rest of apples, visiting family,  adopting new dog (pictures soon), getting wellness checkup new doctor,  DH dental surgery, wonton a phenomenal hike, crocheting 3 fans on order...

I will catch up blog.  I have missed writing and reading others'!

Waiting on plumber to get here (outside water faucet runs hot!?).

A lot of boring, mundane tasks.   But I am enjoying getting them done and checking them off, while spending time with DH, yoga and gymn schedule being tweaked and cuddling in evenings with our dogs.  Stay warm, its cuddle worthy here in my south.

Saturday, October 12, 2019

Great first day of retirement  2.0.. we went on a scenic ride with our car group.  Beautiful crisp fall day.  We bundled up and took my convertible.   We had the heat on.  Day started out 34 degrees 8am.

There were about 20 cars.  We stopped at a quaint little rustic bu
rger place.  So fun!

Seems suitable to cone home wash both my car we took and DH garage queen.  Then we washed the summers bugs off my commuter ride.  She took hood care of me, so we washed her up and polished her nice.

I took some of my ground cover I had going in couple pots with my ivy and thinned it out, spreading it out around our ivy trellis.

This ground cover bright green, roundish leaves, loves the sun.  I will find name of it.. and post before and after pics soon.  The ivy trellis is really coming along.

Excited to watch Sheriff Hopper actor from Steanger Things on SNL tonight.  Have a great weekend to al

Thursday, October 10, 2019

Countdown to Retirement 2.0

Or at the very least a long 3 month or so vacation.  I gave notice 2 weeks ago tomorrow, so tomorros is my last day!  Today is my last full day. 

My boss was great, there is still no opportunity to telecommute.  There are too many others like me ready to come in and do the very same thing I have been doing for 6 months.  They have already started to give out assignments to others in my department who are doing the work on part time basis, along with their other assignments.  I figure this is the way they will continue. 

I will spend some time looking, see if I can do something from home down in Retirement Home state area.  It is a smaller area and so won't have big firm like I work at now, may have to get more creative and outside my comfort zone.  That is not so bad.  We shall see.  I do have several projects at RH that will make mowing easier/pretty to enjoy and the insulation will help our utilities costs.

I already told DH he needs to start reading again, stop shopping.  I am trying to lecture my inner 5 year old as well.  But I really think I want to get one of those air fryers.  I will just ponder for a while and see if that idea persists...maybe I will find a Black Friday deal.

I think this time I am ready, for sure for a break.  Like several months, lol.  The difference this time around is two-fold...I am not deciding anything long term, just see how it feels, I can always find something closer to home and 2nd, I think my expectations are more realistic.  I.e. about my level v DH level of activity, about day to day life.  I am more realistic and less concrete.  Trying to remain more open minded - let things settle and sort of sort themselves out...We shall see!

I will miss my friends here at work and my autonomy, but I think I am more ready this time and in all likelihood will find something closer to home, at least part time because our budget otherwise is very tight. 

I will post more soon!

Wednesday, October 9, 2019

Expensive and exhaustive weekend

I am here at work this week doing Wed thru Friday, since my DH had dental surgery yesterday.  After he was finished, we got our smoothies and I took him home, fixed soup and some yummy zucchini bread for him (soft foods).  We were so concerned about how quickly our elderly male dog had deteriorated in past 3 days, we took him to vet.

She confirmed he was in congestive heart failure.  Had fluid in lungs, around heart/heart enlarged and in abdomen.  She suggested a medicine for us to see if we can get him to breathe easier and give us some time to accept we are in process of losing him - but more likely to be a more peaceful decline and little longer.  W/o medicine he was struggling to breathe.

That, plus dental surgery + several household problems - was an EXPENSIVE weekend.

Thursday night I got home from work in the city.  I took this cool picture of the moon and planet/star? with the train.



We caught up, I enjoyed a show to relax and then we went to bed.  I heard an owl outside, so I went to open the blinds so I could open the window and the blind broke the bracket.  We could have just replaced the one blind hardware - but they were the ugly thin (and yellowed) cheap looking kind - so we just went ahead and replaced all 3 windows plus door - yikes, cost like $370 and was a LOT of work for DH.  I mostly just handed tools and provided moral support.

Then next morning our dryer broke.  So we googled what might be wrong and DH watched a couple videos on You Tube and off to the appliance place we went!  We got the small part and DH put it it - viola!  Saved $1200 there!  So happy, we went ahead and went to a 'junk' festival in a pretty town about 30 miles away.  SO glad we went, we found a metal trellis that perfectly fit in between our garage and detached carport-turned-shop.  Looks very nice and prevents people from just creeping in there (I watch too many Dateline - type shows!). 

I got some more landscaping finished in my yard.  Some I was NOT planning.  We got over 6 inches of rain on Sunday, washed a bunch of my mulch out - so I will now gradually switch out the mulch to river rock.  Since it is pretty expensive, I will have to do it gradually and perhaps over time, the time saved not always having to replace mulch from a portion of our yard that has drainage it will pay for itself.  You can sort of see the water flow under deck from right and go out the far side.  I need better pictures.




Next day I was going to vacuum but my $600 Dyson (about 4-5 years old) just quit.  We tried getting it to start again, just not working.  So we bought a Shark this time.  Hope it works well and lasts a while!

Now I am tired and broke!  At least this is my last week of work for a while, which makes me have anxiety.  I just hope that my DH and my sweet boy do OK for 3 days without me. 

Tuesday, October 1, 2019

Another Whirlwind Weekend

Worked on another border area up next to my house, doing the same halfway buried brick type paver border.  Only this entire back border next to house, I am just doing decorative rock.  This area does not have gutters, so there is always an area where the water drips and beats down anything planted here.  Not sure why gutters never put here, but I am not spending the money to do that now. 

Also, this border will border on one side, the flagstone patio I am installing in between my deck and back porch foundation.  So, it will look neater and more uniform to include decorative rock here to border the small river rock I am putting around the flagstone for the shallow foundation edges that would make it hard to dig/plant.  I got 1/4 of the work finished yesterday.  My DH was good enough to run and get the 200 additional pavers for me.  I already had gotten 100 last week.  The pavers for all the border and the flagstones will cost less than $400.  The lava rock I got free I am leaving - not wild about it.  But hey it was free and coordinates nicely with the brick foundation trim on the house and the red dyed circle fire pit pad the prior home owners poured and we completed with circular stacked pavers around a metal ring for our big fire pit.

I love working in the yard and was disappointed I had to come to work today and could not keep working!  It was high 70's and pretty high humidity yesterday, but that is much better than the high 80's/low 90's we have had mostly lately.  Check out my cute little figs starting on my fig tree!


Friday and Saturday there was a huge bike rally in our area of the state, so DH and I took off and had fun Friday and Sat.  Friday we took my convertible to the vendor area and walked around looking.  We bought me a good knife for cutting my apples from a local young man trying to get his start as a knife-smith.  We had a sign on the convertible and some guy asked about my car I am trying to sell - cross your fingers he really is interested.

Sat after we mowed the yard (I pulled so many weeds, my hands got tired!) we got the bikes out and rode to a car show and walked around and looked.  It was fun.  Then we stopped and had pizza on the way home. 

Sunday I rode to the city with my sister and we helped my Granny in her new place get pictures, mirror, curtains and shower curtains hung.  We are a little concerned that this retirement place has a conventional tub (?!) and a low toilet, but at least there are things you can do to raise the seat up on the toilet.  All in all, my aunt did a good job moving her mother.  Sis and i just helped with the finish work, then drove home 4 hours!

Then Monday landscaping and yoga.  I was so tired after yoga, I was asleep in like 5 minutes - 8:40 or so.  For my 2nd to the last 3:30am wake up Tuesday and 4 hour drive to work in the city.  One more week after this one!

Hope all you out there have a great week!  Happy October!



Wednesday, September 25, 2019

Reflections

Remember all the free plants I got last spring...more on them later.

This week last year we were preparing to leave the extended-stay-hotel-from-hell and leave the city to go permanently to our retirement home.  I remember how excited I was, truly just beyond belief it was happening after counting down what seemed like 10 years but really was more like actual 4 years.  I remember thinking it was all happening so fast and it felt rushed, like events that you have looked so forward to but end up going by in a blur and you try to recall in your memories (and pictures).  Big reason why I started this blog was to document the time getting ready and leading up to such a big change in our lives.

Well, fast forward to spring after we retired.  I was restless, we bought a new car, I saw it as leverage to go back to my same work and get a temp assignment, etc.  And here we are approaching 6 months later.  I am giving my notice this week - 2 more week after this week and I am going to enjoy not wearing makeup, packing my lunch, loading my suitcase, etc.  Going to enjoy having a looser schedule and getting my tire body and my complaining tummy back to balance.  Did a stupid thing with my backyard - stacking rocks for a make-shift temp border while we moved our existing azaleas out from house to around the deck.  I plan to put in flagstone area between the deck and the back porch - so the shrubs had to move.  Then I got a bunch of free plants from DH cousin and just put them wherever to keep them alive - but no real plan.  Watered and had great luck with them - but now I want to more formally/permanently situate the landscaping and make it 1)  pleasing to look at but also 2) easier to tend to/mow around.  So I ditched the topple-ing rocks and installed paver bricks length-wise end to end almost flush with the ground/grass to make for easy mowing, while still keeping the grass and plants separate and looking pretty with mulch. 



I have a LOT more to do, but I like doing projects.  We are also going to put more insulation in our attic so we look forward to that - not so much, but will be glad to get it done.

Last evening I did not go to gym after work.  I drove DH convertible and thought my aunt would enjoy a quick little ride before I go to bed.  She did.  Uncle is failing and feeling badly, but not specifically badly as to be diagnosable in er - no actual pain/fever - just feels crappy all over and his spirits are following along.  She enjoys some company to think about something else.  She had served him dinner and gotten him settled in his chair and off we went, just for a quick spin.  Got a few groceries, I got enough coffee to last 2.5 weeks I have left at the office.

We came home and watched our nightly 30 min of TV then I went to bed.  Slept poorly.  Uncle wants the house like an oven, his main complaint at the moment, is, that he is freezing.  It was 75 there last night!  I woke up hot about 4 times!  Poor Uncle, how will he get through the winter.  Happy Fall a couple days late!

Project in progress:

Wednesday, September 18, 2019

Coming Up on One Year Since DH Retired

I say DH retired, because I retired for 8 months then went back to work.  But I am coming up on the period of time I committed 4 - 6 months, is nearly 6 months.  Then, I will take 2-3 months off and figure out my next step.

I saw this post this morning and it really made my chuckle to myself.  I am back to eating better and really trying to watch my sugar intake, and I already feel much better.  I can tell that it is going to take me a while to really get my gut health back and stop having gastro issues, body aches and skin issues. 

Other improvements I have tried to make is to be more comfortable just being still/non productive and be ok with myself.  This is probably my biggest challenge to retirement - ME!  My mother always told me I was too hard on myself, my worse critic, etc.  She was right.  Mom's are so smart.  I used to be able to call my mom and in the 1st 5 seconds, she could tell where I was emotionally and what I was doing, what I needed...like working too hard, not eating right, not getting enough rest, not enjoying nature, etc.  So amazing.  I miss her every day.

Well, this past weekend was hot as mid summer, DH and I did little except we mowed Saturday and it just wore us out!  So, other than doing a gym workout and couple yoga sessions - we did very little.  I piddled around the house a bit, cleaned, laundry, put together my new coffeetable (and we sold the other one!).  We did downsize an entire Encyclopedia set (my dear husband finally agreed to part with it).  We just don't need - books...they are the weakness of us both!

I gained tons of space on my 4 bookcase set, rearranged our knick knacks so we can really see and enjoy them more.  It was a great feeling - a whole truck load taken to sister in law's store.  Seems like we should not have more stuff to downsize...I wish that were true.  Anyone married to a motorcycle lover seems to have various parts, along with extra boots, helmets, coats...DH also former active camper/hunter/outdoorsman - we have many tents, sleeping bags and various camping equipment we really don't need - I will cull these next spring! 

We did get out our bikes and ride them to Lowe's Saturday after mowing.  I picked out the insulation we will be blowing into the attic in October and the bricks I will be buying for newer, tidier border in my back yard.  While we have decided to stay at our 1 acre yard house for a while, my immediate goal is to make mowing easier, while getting to enjoy my landscaping I have worked so hard on, while I can.

Have a great hump day!

Tuesday, September 10, 2019

Salad Day

Just took a break with a friend at work and there was a bunch of left over Greek salad/hummus in the break room - score!  The food was from Zoe's and I just love their Greek dressing!  It had lettuce, tomatoes, diced red onion, feta cheese and Kalamata olives.  So good.

Thursday, DH had an appointment in the city early Friday.  So his folks were going to run by and feed the dogs for us, he went to see Granny and I met him over there on my way out of town - to home.  We visited with her an hour and he went on north and I went on south.  He got home Friday after apt and playing golf with is brother.  I enjoyed my house just me and the dogs.  Was nice.  We watched TV in bed!

Then Saturday I went to my other friend who passed from cancer (in August) - to his celebration of life.  It was fun driving up with and visiting with my sister.  We took DH convertible.  We also got to see lots of our friends, but it was really draining.

Maybe that is why I am just feeling out of sorts.  Sluggish and lethargic.  Plus I am puffy and yucky from eating bad.  I am starting back over on the no sugar thing.  I had gone with out eating red met until Saturday on the way home I stopped for a snack and ended up eating fast food, yuck.  So starting over there too.  Had not eaten red meat for almost a month.  I don't know why I am having so much problem right now eating for wellness.  I went to yoga last night, other than walking and being really busy doing projects around the house (DH mowed without me Saturday - surprised me so much!) I had not worked out officially since last wed yoga - so I went last night and sweated like crazy - then came home - had a light meal and watched tv show - then bed.  I am tired of this schedule, in 3 more weeks I will give my 2 week notice - so 5 more weeks in total.

At least it is still in the 90's and hot!  It was good weather to stay in and organize...last weekend I organized and cleaned out my spice cabinet.  This weekend I cleaned out and scoured the freezer part of the fridge - I need to do free standing freezer next weekend.  And we have a nice 8 by 8 ish storage closet off our garage - I cleaned that out, organized and swept the floor/shelves and re-arranged.  Got rid of a carload of knick knacks...and DH is clearing out his giant collection of encyclopedias so we can offer then for sale at his sister's store and empty out several of our bookcases.  We looked at the small yard house(new house) once again and decided that the storage was just so lacking - we could not do it.  So, we are staying in our current house.  But, DH agreed that we could continue to purge.  If we actually considered this house - we must both be in agreement that we could do with less.  So, I am going to continue to pare down excess and DH agreed, because someday we will want to move and find house with smaller yard (and probably less storage).  Mainly right now, I get tired of cleaning around stuff!

And for my own part...I am going to store nothing in our attic except 4 Christmas and 2 fall totes.  I told DH I was purging down so much, that if/when we do move, I will easily be able to quickly look and decide what I do NOT need to keep.  Experience, not things is my mantra. 

I do not regret that I plan to finish a few cheap money/labor intensive projects around my house that we will get to enjoy and that will make our house and yard look great. 

Oh, I forgot to tell this...my friend at work brought me a bag full of pears.  They are really delicious green pears with a pretty thick skin.  I got them all up and put in bags in my freezer for smoothies because they are pretty small just to try to halve.  I made DH and I pear and spinach smoothies and my little $80 bullet from Walmart did great!  We did not detect the skins or the spinach.  I was very happy with my inexpensive blender. 

Then, Monday we had peach, apple and banana smoothies and they were yummy.  I am going to get another giant supply of apples this week and so I wanted my apples still in the freezer used up.  Hope you are reaping some great produce as this harvest moon approaches!

Thursday, September 5, 2019

Wayfair Not Such Great Service

Now that I have touted Wayfair, I am pretty mad at them.  I decided that the table that had a small divot out of it, I would request a replacement piece when I requested the drawer bottoms (they were left out) for the coffee table.  Of course by this time, DH has worked hours putting these two pieces together.

Today I tested him to see whether the replacement parts have arrived yet.  It is not possible to track their delivery like it was for the original pieces of furniture.  So, I send an instant message to their website...nothing...email...nothing...then after an hour, they respond to a message I put on their Facebook messenger...they will send replacements, but they won't get there till mid September?!  I was so angry - over a month after I order...plus, we have to take the ones apart and put new pieces in. 
Geez.

Anyway, I am in just a horrible mood.  My tummy has been killing me.  I am going on about a month not enough rest, I will get my friends funeral over this weekend, then hopefully begin to get some relief in a busy, yet stable routine.  And even better, I think I will only work like this in the city for another 6 weeks.  I feel more than ever the need to be home.

Have a great weekend!

My heart goes out to those affected by the hurricane.  So sad. 

Tuesday, September 3, 2019

Final Wayfair Share

 
This weekend I got to see the coffee table I had ordered that DH has assembled while I was working last week.  We were a little disappointed that the bottom shelf panels were missing, but a quick email indicated they would be mailed to us soon.  I realize these things happen, but why don't they mail them back with the same communication/urgency of the original order?  The tabletop had a divet out of it that we tried to patch, but it still did not look great and we were afraid it would not hold up over time - I requested that be replaced too and it has been nearly 2 weeks!  So, for small inexpensive items, mail order has been fine (plus I wanted 3 very specific and small things).  Most furniture you see in retail stores is 1)  expensive!  and 2)  huge.

I am overall happy to get exactly what I want, fairly inexpensive and be a little patient/put them together. 

This was after I got home from the city Thursday evening and turned around and rode back with my sister.  I really should have stayed home, I was exhausted to the point of needed to nap.  Which is not like me.  We did learn when we stopped to visit our Granny that she is moving.  From an independent living apartment to another closer to her daughter.  She was afraid we would be mad, I don't really understand why she thought I would be mad, I guess because she was not moving closer to me.  I never expected that.  Anyway, she insists on hiring a moving truck (she does not have much, will be $900).  I am grateful for that, because otherwise even though we have cousins in the city, DH and I would have done the majority of the work.  This way my sister and I can take a couple days to help unpack and make her place more of a home.  We are honored to help her.

My aunt and unle were so thrilled at my sister's gift of a call-button system.  Very proud and happy.  Nice that my sister can do that for them.  We had a nice lunch with them Sat before we drove back.  So, I was home Sat night, Sunday and Monday.  My sister and I also enjoyed a nice dinner with my girlfriends from the city T and D.  We haven't kept up with D as much, she does not really keep in touch much either, is busy with her grandkids.  Frankly talks about them non stop.  She still indicated she wanted to come down to our house.  Not without T, I will just have to put it off maybe.
Sunday DH and I mowed and looked at 2 for sale houses in our little town with smaller yards.  One house over priced and needed a $5000 - $8000 wood fence replaced - PLUS it had 7 giant cut off stumps in the yard - a fairly small yard.  It had been gutted and remodeled beautifully, but lacked these 2 huge items for us - and overpriced.  The other house was brand new - very pretty and I really loved the layout - tiny yard which is ok for us.  But it was REALLY small (not that I care).  Just not sure we are ready to downsize that much this quick. 

Then Monday we looked at 2 larger homes 1 old 1 new in nearby higher traffic area.  One had a nice view, the other did not.  Both smaller yards - 1 mostly rock.  DH really hating our huge yard and the mowing.  I offer to do the mowing, he is not willing to have his wife do all the mowing - so it is a quandary for us, somewhat.  We may consider finding room in our budget to hire someone, but it would be $70/week!  We will see.

One thing this looking has shown us - we are essentially on the same page - we just want cozy home, to enjoy each other and reduce our focus on stuff.  However, I have been feeling this pull for about 5 years -to reduce my stuff and he seems new to the change - although surprises me sometimes.  Actually 2 things, we both really do feel the happy goal of making sure the other person is happy and satisfied where we are in life and in our retirement...more broadly, in our life journey. 

I told DH last night as we were relaxing before I had to get to bed early to get up at 3:45 am - I just care about him, not what we have or where we live.  Plus - we really do love our house.  So, we will probably stay put and enjoy all we have done on the house.  It has been quite a summer indeed.

Thursday, August 29, 2019

August is out of here

Can't believe that August is almost over.  This summer has flown by.  I guess that happens when you are really busy.  I made it through yoga class last night even though my friend, T was having leg pain and didn't make it.  She is having bad Charlie-horse type cramping pain and has for a while!  Poor T, I hope she can get some answers and find some relief.

I usually treat myself to a bought smoothie Wednesdays after I do yoga.  I make my own on Tues night and most days at noon, that is all I have - smoothie for lunch.  I am tired just thinking about tomorrow - I am going home tonight, unpack and do load of laundry, sleep in my own bed...then tomorrow I ride back up here with my sister for her to visit our granny and see aunt/uncle.  My sister is fixing up aunt/uncle with an I've-fallen-and-can't-get-up button - she works for one of these companies in neighboring state and can monitor it herself.  My granny has one too.

I noticed yesterday when looking at my granny's bank account that she has a large debit coming out of her checking - I called her to let her know we are coming noonish Friday to visit and she said we would talk about the transaction I referenced tomorrow.  I think she must have put down a deposit to move closer to her daughter and probably dreads telling me because she knows that my husband and I will do most of the work moving her - but I just want her to be happy.  She will second guess and feel like she has picked lesser of two evils - but when we moved her up here 5 years ago - who would have guessed she would arrive and fly past 100 with flying colors?!  Moving her where we did was the best choice at that time.  Moving again is part of life - we will get it done.  I will assure of all these things.  Of course, we would prefer she move south to be closer to us - but I understand she wants to be near her daughter/my aunt.  If my grandmother outlives her daughter, she will move to our state.

Anyway.  DH put together the last piece of furniture I bought - a cute white coffee table with storage.  He said it was like 25 pieces to put together.  And he discovered the drawer bottoms were missing!  UGH.  I sent an email this morning to Wayfair and supposedly they will send the missing panels.  I will let you know.

I will be back home Sat evening.  While we are up here, my sister and I are having a nice meal at our favorite shopping area in the city with a couple of my girlfriends who were planning to come down this weekend - but ended up having to cancel because T has an event Saturday with charity she is involved with.  So, I said I would come to them.  Now I dread it because I am so tired.

I think the fatigue I am feeling lately is a combination of my driving and working in the city away from DH now for the entire summer, along with some extra running around I have done because of my 2 classmates dying.  So, I am trying to get extra rest and eat well.  Limit my caffeine and junk - eat lots of colorful veggies and fruit.  Lean meat.  No sugar added smoothies.  I have about 6 more weeks and then I will have some much needed downtime. 

DH and I were thinking of going somewhere in Oct.  But I am leaning toward not doing much for Oct and Nov, I need to rest. 

I hope all of you are looking forward to a wonderful Labor Day weekend!

Tuesday, August 27, 2019

New Table

We had a nice weekend, DH and I went to a concert Sunday.  It was really fun.  It was back up in the city where I am working.  We had to board the dogs, but we had them bathed while there were there and they look nice and smell good.  We had a nice time staying with and seeing my aunt and uncle.  I am glad DH got to see my uncle, he is really slipping last few months.  We also got to play golf with DH 2 brothers.  It was very rainy and cool!  We went by Sat night and saw our former neighbors in the city.  That was nice.  Again, very chilly for August!

We got back home Monday morning and it went from chilly and drizzly to 91 and humid in the country!  We mowed Monday afternoon and I had to stop twice to cool off and get some water!  I also watered real well and all my plants I have planted over the spring and summer look so nice!
I asked SIL how her plants were doing (she got the other half of the plants in May from her and DH cousin).  She said hers look terrible!  She hasn't had the time to water hers like we have (they own a business and have cattle and BIL works full time).  She said she will be embarrassed if/when cousin comes to town!  Ha.  I also switched out hummingbird food and ate dinner, then went to bed! 

On Mondays I go to bed at 8pm to get up Tuesdays at 3:30pm to drive to the city.  Today I am tired, but not too bad.  I will do moderate workout at the gymn after work.  I did yoga for first time in 2 months Wed and Sat and I am still a little sore!  Will not have that big of a gap ever again!
Anyway, here is our new table.  We really like it.  We are selling another table and 4 chairs, a set of end/coffee/sofa tables and a leather chair at my SIL vintage resale store.  I wanted something lighter with a pedestal.  The light pedestal is the new one.

Have a great Monday!

Thursday, August 22, 2019

New Chair


DH and I have been in our retirement house full time for a year end of September.  Anything that we have bought for the house (not much) we have found second hand mostly.  We brought the favorite things from our city house and got rid of TONS!

But looking around, I am seeing a few pieces that I like, but not loving and so I bought 3 new things - AFTER I checked online (FB marketplace), thrift stores and retail stores.  I ordered a new chair for our master bedroom because the leather chair we put in there is too dark and sits too low.  I looked several places and just did not want to pay $200+ for a small chair, but my wants for this chair were specific enough, so I went with new. 

As you can see, the corner is small and dark.  Taking out the dark chair and putting in the smaller white chair will really brighten this corner.  I have a couple more I will share next week, as I get them.

Hope you have a great Thursday and weekend beyond!

Wednesday, August 21, 2019

Do I Have a Story For You!

So, I mentioned insurance companies briefly yesterday's post...perfect time to unleash this story!

So, for 15 years I slaved away and toiled and gave my blood, sweat, tears and the prime time of my life (and child bearing years) to my career.  It happened to be for a Fortune 100 Insurance Company.  Let's call them BIC (Big Insurance Company).

The parting ways was very negative (another LONG story I am too tired to write about now).  I was devastated.  I will elaborate someday soon - maybe after my short term working gig is over this fall.

I moved on...I was married (bad marriage) to a guy who inherited a very successful agency business from his father.  A huge "book" of business of loyal insurance clients.  In insurance, when you sign up people and secure policies - you get a commission and kickbacks as long as they are signed up with you.  So, I decided to learn they sales side of it in his office and then open a 2nd office. 

So, I worked in his office, learned the systems they had in place, the basics about running an office and went about getting my formal training from insurance company #2.  We will call them IC2.  Another positive factor for me was the fact that I have legal background and claims background, so I already knew much about coverage and the features that enhance protecting one's assets, etc.  I went a week in Denver - ALL my expenses I covered.  I was in a class with about 40 other similar-prospective agents-in-training.  Then a week in Chicago.  Then another week in Denver.  All along, IC2 is working with prospective agents hand in hand (setting up business plan, doing paperwork to set up legal entity with respective state, picking locations and signing leases, getting stationary/envelopes, arranging for signage, etc.). 

Needless to say, this process costs THOUSANDS of dollars for everyone - the company PLUS the prospects.  PLUS I am forgoing income for about a year getting this all set up.  Part of the way IC2 gets new agents (besides being very hands-on for the first couple of years in setting everything up) is to offer financial incentives for certain sales goals, etc.  They even offered me a free "book" of business, after the successful opening of my office, I would "own" this book. 

If EH (ex-husband - sorry, spoiler alert) agency were strictly in numbers, figure his business did about $400,000 a year - not directly translated into income for him - that is much more complicated math.  But, his book probably included about $400,000 revenue in premiums for a year for IC2.  Mine was about $50,000 that IC2 "gave" me.  But, hey, I will take it, you know?

So I spend thousands getting my company up and running, I hire 2 people and we are all trained and working hard.  I even transferred my 401(k) to my own "book" and took a very nice commission on it to benefit my numbers.  The problem was - that I was in my early 40's and stuck in a 10 year product that makes like nothing (and transversely - loses nothing).  So, this investment vehicle has virtue for people who are older and risk intolerant - but a very BAD idea for younger person who needs their saved money to grow.

Anyway, I work at this business for about a year I get the nice bonus promised - low five-figures.  But, keep in mind I have not worked for A YEAR - No INCOME!  Then, IC2 comes to me and says, "yeah, we know you completed and turned in a business plan that we approved...but we are ending this partnership - we don't want you to run your business this way that you planned".  My business plan included half insurance sales and half legal free-lance.  THEY initially agreed to it, just to get me to commit!

I was stunned and incredulous.  So, I went back to them and said if they would let me sell the book they gave me and give me a settlement, I would sell and get out.  They agreed.  I sold the business that I spent a year setting up for mid-five figures.  OK, that was pretty good.  And remember that bonus?  Well, they paid me twice by accident.  HAHA.  But the icing on the cake - they paid me a settlement.  So, I ended up about the same bottom line, as if I had worked for my prior insurance company for a year.  I did feel bad about having to let my 2 employees go, but one woman was wanting to open her own company - which she did with A DIFFERENT insurance company, after seeing what IC2 did to me...and the other employee was having a lot of personal and health problems and wanted to get a less stressful (not sales-based) job - which she did right away. 

I asked my tax guy about the taxes and he said IF IC2 sent a 1099 to the IRS, I would have to file income tax on that settlement money.  Well, guess what?  On the settlement I negotiated, they never 1099'd it so I did not have to pay taxes.  How is that for sweet revenge against them changing the rules and pulling the rug out from under me?!  Today I work in a job that is very low stress and OK revenue and I feel like I was VERY lucky in the long run.  I did all this mentioned above with ZERO debt!  All this money I invested and went out and immediately got a W2 job.  Thank GOD!

IC2?  Well, they are going strong.

Another agent I know of bought a book to the tune of mid-six-figures and is now working furiously to make it float.  I know the agent he bought it from because she bought mine - and she was dirty.  Trying to pull things, so I know she probably cheated him too.  I am so grateful I did not borrow any money (Thank you Jesus).

The moral of this story?  I was so angry at this company that I had my annuity moved away from them - TO ANOTHER ANNUITY.  Can you say cut off my nose to spite my face?  Oh well, when the 10 years came up and I could move my six-figure retirement account to another company - the agent on record was the same executive that I had battled with YEARS earlier.  It was very satisfying to tell them that even if they were the last company on earth I could invest my money with - I would take my chances with putting it under my mattress!!!!!!!!!!

Tuesday, August 20, 2019

Cancer, I Hate You

Drove home late Thursday, got home around 9:30pm.  Was sooooooo happy to see DH and the dogs after being gone 10 days.  That is the longest we have ever been apart - never again!  Not to mention the 4 loads of laundry!

Friday after I did my walk with the big dog, we had errands.  We took the old convertible.  He did fine.  We checked on an old index annuity I have been stuck in since my days of being an insurance agent - LONG story.  Point is...don't play footsie with any insurance company - they will take you down.

We had a nice late lunch/early dinner at a Mexican restaurant we had been meaning to try.  Yum.  Then we went back home, checked on the dogs then went to see Hobbs and Shaw with Dwayne Johnson and Jason Statham.  It was fun.

Saturday, more piddling around the house and we ate a sandwich for dinner.  I was tired.  Think it is all the running I have been doing (plus I did my usual 4 mile workout at the gym) and projects at home.  Sunday we mowed and I made a homemade chicken potpie and mashed potatoes.  Our tomatoes have just dwindled to nothing - I think they got too hot or too crowded.  So, we had to settle for olives as our veggie.  Ha.  Then Sunday night I got the news I had dreaded, my friend since 3rd grade passed.

My group on text group with each other - we have grown even closer the last year and a half as we shared the ups and downs of cancer diagnosis with N and L - all of us friends since 3rd grade (some since kindergarten).  The downs are obvious.  The ups?  Well, lots of hope, lots of prayers, sharing feelings, supporting each other, lots of love, learning and when they finally pass - they are at peace and out of pain. 

Thanks for reading.  I will try to be upbeat next time.

Thursday, August 15, 2019


I love Ginny's post today from Marshmallow Ranch blog.  It is about metamorphosis.  I wish I could write like she does.  I think like she does, often.  But somewhere between brain and mouth or fingers, it dissipates.  You should go and read her post today.  She includes a scripture that I love.

“And we all, with unveiled face, beholding the glory of the Lord, are being transformed into the same image from one degree of glory to another. For this comes from the Lord who is the Spirit.”
2 Corinthians 3:18 ESV

I am hearing from my group of classmate friends how our friend, N, is slipping away.  It is killing my heart.  So, I have to back up and get some perspective.

I posted this on TBT social media.  A picture of DH and my bike as we came home ten years ago from Sturgis, SD.  On the way up to Sturgis, we passed a vast, magnificent sunflower field.  I made a mental note, how much I wanted to stop and take pictures on the way home.  Well, few days later after our Sturgis adventures, it slipped my immediate memory...So, we are making the long, arduous trip home, me - not terribly experienced with riding on long trips on my own, I do well just to pay attention and keep my wits about me...we are cruising along and lo and behold, up ahead I see something that catches my attention...DH is pulling over up ahead of me.  It is the sunflower field!  He too made a mental note of where the fields were, so he would recognize when to be on the lookout on the way back.  He knew I would be delighted to stop!  We took several pictures, some I printed and still have hanging on my wall in our new house today!

Often when things seem overwhelmingly sad, God gives me a sign.  And I take it!

N is going through his metamorphosis.  A month ago L went through hers - to everlasting life with Our Savior.

Wednesday, August 14, 2019

Wednesday Inspiration

Despite being tired I had good day at the gym after work yesterday.  You know how somedays it is just a chore?  Well, it went well yesterday.  I got my walk done and then did 30 min on the bike.  Got home and showered, ready for bed.  Stayed up too late visiting with my Aunt.  Then we had to watch our Grace and Frankie episode.  I have to pack up my laundry and pick up a little tonight, since I get up zoon to work and leave directly from work.  Can't wait to get home.

Called DH on my way home from gym last night.  I always call him before bed, but I was calling 8ish to let him know I was planning to go to bed early.  Well, he sounded really up and happy and I heard music in the background.  He had gone to a bike night about 20 miles away with a neighbor we knew had a bike.  I was happy to know he got out and did something. 

More on that...my husband has really made some great changes lately.  He stopped taking pain medication and is trying lyrica for his back pain and having some results with that.  He sounds really good.  I can't wait to see him in person.  We have never been apart for 10 days before and never will again. 

I listened to a couple of Super Soul Sunday podcasts this morning.  One of them about False Ego.  I need to stop letting my ego boss me around.  Then listened to Nordic True Crime podcast about the sinking of the MS Estonia, a ferry that sank in the Baltic Sea in 1994.  The story is crazy about how the ferry wreckage and the people who went down with it were left down there and considered a "grave" and any diving there is prohibited by law.  A man came forward who worked there and said that there were military equipment shipments (in vehicles) that were ordered through and not to inspected and other questionable things...I never knew all this happened after the accident.  You should check out Nordic True Crime podcast.  It is good.  Her voice is soothing and the music is creepy.

I also recently listened to Heartland, a memoir by Sarah Smarsh.  It was good.  About growing up poor rural Kansas.  I always thought my family/ancestors were pretty poor also, but at least my relatives seemed to have fairly consistent/stable lives, compared to the family Smarsh discusses.  My grandmother grew up rural northern Missouri and was poor farmers, but my grandmother says they did not really know they were poor during the Depression because everyone else was poor too.

Well, I saw this and liked what it said.  Have a great Wednesday!

Tuesday, August 13, 2019

Tuesday Tired


This is the view from my home, from age 4 to about age 10.


Had a great weekend.  Celebrated my cousin's birthday at the lake Saturday.  Swam at the pool, then pizza in clubhouse, watched football.  It was fun.  Then Sunday went to the other side of the lake to see our friend N, sick with cancer.  I should say, be present for N.  We did not even know if we would see him, he is very ill.  But we did lend support to his girlfriend and my friend from Florida, J and his wife, T, they brought mower up and mowed his yard.  I weed eated and watered the animals, played with their pup. 

We stayed Sunday night with our friend, C who was just widowed July.  It was very hot.  I spent time with my girlfriend B while C was working.  We drove around our old hometown and reminisced.  Before I picked her up, I did the cemetery tour, my mom, grandfather and great uncle.  It was peaceful.  The cicadas are going crazy, tells me thought its hot...summer winding down. 
Was depleted driving back to city.  Made it safe, showered and had a snack with my aunt while we watched TV then bed.  Lots of work today.

I miss DH and my dogs.  2.5 more days.

Wednesday, August 7, 2019

Cool Clouds

I was so grateful I made it into the building before it started storming this morning.  I have given up my $107/month parking spot to try to preserve a little money now that I am only working 3 days a week.  I have to walk about 2 blocks.  So, when I bring lunch/drinks/snacks I have to be mindful of how heavy it is!  This morning I meant to bring my bag of tortilla chips in, but forgot.  I will have to put them in the front seat tomorrow!  We have a very nice lady who has a store downstairs and I do buy things from her, but I try to limit what I buy because she has to mark it up to make money, I understand this...but dang.  I bought a soda last week (rare treat) and it was $2!  She actually carries kombucha which I buy from her occasionally when I don't feel like lugging heavy glass bottles, the mark up is not nearly as bad.

I also managed to bring my snacks and lunch for all 3 days this week and part of next week.  When I pack the Monday before I drive to the city, I get all my clothes/workout clothes, sheets/towels and pills/supplements packed and in the car.  In the morning at 4am, all I mess with is my coffee and my cooler. 

This week I brought hard boiled eggs for snack and tortillas with spinach, bacon and avocado for my lunch, along with home grown tomatoes/cherry tomatoes.  In the evenings I fix a smoothie at my aunt's house.  Usu almond milk, frozen fruit and kale or spinach with vegan protein and a 1/2 of banana.  Last night I stopped at the store because I was out of bananas and saw the English toffee MM's.  I did not care for the taste.  So I gave them to my aunt who shared them with her 4 greats.  They were all there when I got home.  No worries, I smoothied, showered and collapsed - all after my hour workout. 

I feel tired but pretty rested this morning.  Nothing a little caffeine and work won't fix. 

After this weekend of mass shootings, I felt sad.  I mostly think of the people directly involved, but I also think of our poor children and wonder how it affects them.  Feel bad.  1 Corinthians 15:43 "Our bodies are buried in brokenness, but they will be raised in glory.  They are buried in weakness, but they will be raised in strength."  Sometimes it feels like our country is broken.

Tuesday, August 6, 2019

Free Lawn Decoration - Score!

My brother in law has some land.  He saved me a giant flat rock that was broken in half.  I picked it up when DH was up in the city for a doctor's appt.  We buried in ground couple of inches, flanking our driveway.  I am going to fasten house number on one side.  The solar light faintly lights the rocks at night.  We buried these Sunday afternoon.  It was hot work.  It was good timing that BIL and his wife were in retirement town to see DH parents, we got to see them.  We missed them when we stopped by their house in city Thurs.  We had dinner with everyone Sat night and lunch Sunday.  We shared some of our homegrown tomatoes. 

We are still getting a few tomatoes.  They did not grown large, but better than a lot of people's.  We are still getting quite a few grape and cherry.  Some are split from all the rain.  I just cook those and keep in freezer.  I blend them up peel and all with hand held blender.  I will use this for pasta sauce or soup stock this winter.

Monday we mowed and I watered everything.  I got a couple new hoses from Walmart.com that are silver and look sort of like aluminum.  They are lightweight and don't kink.  Don't take up so much room in the grass to mow around.  While I am gone this week, DH is installing a couple of hose keepers on the front and side of house.  We did have a keeper hung on back for large house - that does most of my rear garden/landscaping. 

DH is also going to buy pool noodles and electric tape and repair/rewrap the 3 outside/free standing water spouts to insulate them.  He also said he would research how much insulation/what type of machine rental to blow it in we need.  Then we are going to install a little more flooring in attack to store stuff we don't need down below taking up room. 

Honestly, we go back and forth between continuing to work on this house and look for a smaller yard.  But, I am fine with taking over all the mowing, if I have to.  The riding mower is nice, but not high dollar like some of our friends/relatives.  I know people who have $1000 in just their seat.  So, seat bounces DH around quite a bit, hurting his back.  Next time we mow, he going to try push mower.

We went through lake area on our way back Friday afternoon, spent one night with our Florida friend.  We missed his wife this trip.  DH staying home with the dogs this weekend, I will be by lake again.  Spending some time with my aunt/cousins at the lake, then some time with an out of state school friend - we are all 4 girls going to run by see our other friend who has cancer.  I will get to see friend and wife too, from Florida.  Going to be away from DH for 10 days, which we hate.  I told him I have about 4- 6 weeks left at work.  Then I am taking another break.  I am tired.  Got up this morning and drove to city at 4am.  Not too bad when it is warm, I can't imaging trying to do this when it is cold.  Yuck. 


Thursday, August 1, 2019

Time Flies Even When You Are Not Having Fun

Have been crazy busy lately.  It's all good. 

I have stopped eating fruit early in the morning and stopped drinking coffee from the machine at work and I feel MUCH better.  I did have cheese Sunday morning and was bent over sick for rest of Sunday and all of Monday.  OK now.

Saturday we went to DH's aunt's funeral early in am, south.  Then we drove north to my hometown and to funeral of my classmate LJA.  It was bittersweet. 

Both funerals happy because I know they are with Jesus.  But sure is sad to say goodbye.

DH father is youngest of 7.  Is just himself and one brother left out of entire family.  We used to go to their reunions in small southern town of my homestate - they were really nice.  Can't believe almost all of the elders are now gone.  The cousin's have not kept up the tradition.  I am sorry about that.  My DH family is not social at all.  Well, of the 4 children, DH brother is social.  The other 3 - not at all.  Even my SIL I have to initate almost all interaction/socializing.  I am not good at this. 

After LJA funeral, DH drove home and my sister and I stayed and went to the dinner after and spent the evening at her husband and her lake house with 2 of my other girlfriends.  We invited several, but just us 4 with the widower.  Then, one of the guys came over and so it was 6 of us.  We stayed up talking and laughing until 2:30am!  My other childhood friend, from grade below us also stopped by and visited.  It was nice seeing he and widower catch up a little.  Widower told other friend that he would be down at the lake more and hoped to see friend more.  I know my friend liked that.  He had a difficult childhood and he craves friends to understand him.  Evidently widower was not in his late wife's trust and so now he has to move out of house in town (it will go to his son) and is moving down to the lake full time.  He grew up there, so he is aware, but I will worry because it is so quiet and isolated there in the winter.  My other friend grade below lives full time in Florida now.  But things will go as they are supposed to.  I just continue to pray for widower and for my other friends still struggling with cancer.  N was so sick he could not even attend L funeral.

Sunday morning, we rode in the boat over to other friend's in laws lake house and his wife fixed such a nice breakfast for us all!  (That is when I ate cheese - I KNOW better!).  Got home Sunday afternoon and crashed.  It was our anniversary.  DH had played golf earlier with his brother still down for aunt's funeral and he was tired.  I got home, did 4 miles walk in the heat and I collapsed.  So, we will celebrate our anniversary this weekend.

Monday, we mowed.  I went to bed early, then drove up to city 4:30am Tues.  Worked Tues - Thurs and here I am.  DH coming up to the city for his dr apt in am.  Will play golf again in am.  I will prob stay behind and clean house for my aunt I am staying with.  Then we will drive by lake 1 night and see Florida friend (his wife not coming till Sunday) and then get on home and relieve our dog sitter. 

Goodbye July, hello August.  Hope you have a great weekend!