Saturday, December 29, 2018

Keeping Score

It was a nice coincidence this morning that my inspirational emails were both about similar thing.  Motives and Keeping Score.  Maybe the true coincidence is timing.

Spending a lot of time with family can leave one feeling a lot of emotions.  I myself feel a lot of emotions.  Esp this year.  Maybe because we are retired and i do not have the distractions of work and career.  Maybe because I always miss my mom during the holidays.  Maybe because of the evolution of social media.  It is easy to fall into the pattern of comparing oneself.  One of my friends calls it comparing my insides to others outsides.  I suppose I still do that.  Its probably human nature.  I have some friends who are fully involved in social media.  I have some friends who fervently avoid it.  I try to keep a happy medium.  Enjoy the keeping in touch aspect, follow some bloggers and fashion instagrams, connecting with others I might not otherwise, seeing peoples families grow up.  Some groups on Facebook that I get a lot of inspiration from.  But avoid the negative pitfalls...There are a lot of them:  comparison, gossip, judgment, fakeness, superficiality, time wasting...not to mention the things I might be accomplishing if I were not on social media.  But I do find myself having much more free time now...And actually I am on social media less often that when I was bored at work all day.

Anyway, back to the score keeping.  It basically goes to the hard of one's motives.  The gift giving aspect of Christmas is very much deserving of at least a consideration of our motives.  That is an entire separate discussion.  I went to Silver Dollar City with a friend and her mom and sister Thursday.  It was really nice.  We walked around and looked at the shops and went to a musical.  Then we took in the lights and the lights were fantastic!  I got to watch a bit of glass blowing and pottery spinning.  I loved it.  Just the drive alone was breathtaking!  I also enjoyed the company and conversation.  My friends' mom commented that her neighbor brings them lost of baked treats.  And if they take her something, she immediately gives something in return.  I know a couple of relatives like that.  I think I am a little like that.  It is positive, I want to do nice things for others, esp when they have done something for me.  But the real reason we do for others is because that is what love is.  I will not really change my attitude toward this, but I will be mindful of my motives and most importantly, not expect anything back.

Many things are changing now that we are retired.  One of those things is plenty of time for reflection.  This time of the year I seem to take some time to reflect more.  It will be interesting to see how this is New Years time goes now that I am less busy.  I think the big difference is that I am looking forward to a new year more than ever.  I am looking forward to doing more things with DH.  Big things like travel and new interests, but even just fine tuning our day to day routine. 
He is gone all weekend hunting and I really miss him.  No deer yet, but he is going to stay until Monday if he still has not gotten one.  I want him to enjoy himself, but I don't really want another deer.  One is plenty.  I guess we will just be generous if he gets another.  He does want to be home to ring in the New Year with his baby.  Until then, we are limited to sending emails and PM (on social media - how ironic!)
Hope you all are having a great weekend.  Are you thinking of the New Year?  Any big plans?  Small plans?  Mindfulness or intentions?  I usually pick a word.  Mine is "receive".  I chose a very passive word intentionally.  I am changing already!

Friday, December 28, 2018

One week

We are now one week in to the days getting longer.  I haven't noticed.  I still have no phone.  Makes posting difficult.  I am settling in for a cold weekend in solitude, with no phone.  DH went north to hunt.  I will check in tomorrow or Sunday and chat.

Have a wonderful Friday!

Tuesday, December 25, 2018

Merry Christmas

Have been pretty busy celebrating Christmas with families.  I am tired and ready for it to be over, but in a good way.  Between baking and helping my inlaws serve 2 meals, and having a nephew overnight, I am having some sore back and feel like I need to start my diet tomorrow!  I did manage to walk Sunday and Monday.  Today I did a mini yoga session on my own.  I think I will take a day off walking to rest my back.  Oh, we also raked leaves Sunday.

Last night we had dinner with my sister and her family.  Today I am hosting DH family.  Tomorrow should be pretty relaxing.  I feel the abundance in my life.

I hope all of you are spending your holiday with someone you love, or at least holding memories close.  I feel sad my DGM dear grandmother is probably spending her day alone, at least with her fellow residents.  My aunt was in the hospital with the flu the one grandchild besides me would would be there I guess he is sick too.

Sometimes our memories are all we have.  Sometimes we have to reach out to friends for companionship.  I know I have dwelt on these things much throughout my life.  I have learned to have a day to day relationship to God.  That is all I will need as I grow old, God wiling.
Let there be peace and gratitude in your hearts everyday, not just day.

Friday, December 21, 2018

Hello Winter

Luke 1:78-79, “Because of God’s tender mercy, the morning light from heaven is about to break upon us, to give light to those who sit in darkness and in the shadow of death, and to guide us to the path of peace.” (NLT)

It got pretty cool yesterday.  I slept pretty good last night.  Having headache and back ache made my put off my last batch of cookies for today.  Now I wish I had powered through.  I bought a new crockpot, broke the crock for my other one.  Looked online and couple thrifts, could not readily find a new crock.  I will keep the shell and lid for a couple months...see if I can find another crock.  If not, I can trash then.

Woke up yesterday at 4am...stayed in bed till 6 and got up.  Watched the sun come up.

Later in the day, we moved around some stuff so that we could move my truck in the shop.  It really makes things tight in there, but the truck is new and expensive, so we wanted to store inside.  I finally got all the commission friend's sister's shoes listed on Poshmark.  I have 146 left, but they are all cleaned and listed.  I brought all the boots back in my house, hoping I can get them all sold by end of February.  The boxes of shoes I have narrowed down to at lieast a single file against far wall of the shop, allowing the truck in.   I have 41 of my own listings, mostly jeans and shoes.  I have sold gross of over $600 for her and couple hundred for myself.  I am saving up for another pair or 2 of tennis shoes.  They are all I wear now.  So I am just going to embrace it.

My high school class is planning a late January get together.  I have been working on it with my friend.  I have to use DH phone.  No telling when mine will be back.  She laughs and tells me she found ANOTHER BOX of shoes.  They are totally ok with and I am thinking someday...if all the stuff is listed and I don't want to perpetually stock my inventory...I will let the listings dwindle and I will either donate the last bit, or take them somewhere to sell in person on commission.  I will see what happens.  My friend said, get what I can and donate the rest.  They just needed them gone.

What are you donating?  Baking?  Hope your day is filled with Christmas preparations and happy planning!

Thursday, December 20, 2018

Goodbye Fall

I had entry all typed out and then it was gone.  I am tired.  Had problems with internet today and Netflix.  I miss my phone.  Maybe I will be chatty tomorrow.

Tuesday, December 18, 2018

I can't believe it is the 18th already

When I posted I thought it was the 16th.  I stop all the time and have to really concentrate...what is the date today?  What day of the week is it?  We have been retired 2.5 months and are starting to see a natural schedule evolve.  But we wanted it to be organic and not something that we arbitrarily came up with out of fear or other weirdness out of our emotions.

I pray that I may not worry over the limitations of my human mind. I pray that I may live as though my mind were a reflection of the Divine Mind.
Hazelden Foundation

My emotions are tied to my past, I feel like.  So, since I have never been retired before, I wanted to approach it out of honesty and not a picture of what others had told me or what I felt was right because of competing emotions I might not fully understand.  After getting our house, finances, cars and paperwork like insurance, licenses, property taxes, bank accounts, address changes all sorted out...it has been our goal to take it real easy this winter.  Essentially work on our mental health...and physical.  DH has lost about 15 pounds and I have lost just a few, maybe 5 pounds.  But we are trying to focus on eating a balanced diet and not eating too much.  I specifically am trying to eat more vegetables.

For a week now, after we drink our coffee we don't eat till 11 or 12.  Look up the effects of intermittent fasting on our bodies and how we make more HGH if we stop eating at night and don't eat again for 12-16 hour later.  I swear this is helping us immensely.  DH and I both have inflammation type chronic conditions.  I have researched vitamins, herbs and minerals I have been so sick in the past during my working years that I did not know how I was going to keep working. 
Vitamins, minerals, herbs, smaller meals, no dairy and at times full elimination diet have turned my health around.  I take a very expensive probiotic that made the biggest single impact.  I also take a digestive enzyme.  DH does not take this, but he eats more veggies than I ever have and he is taking cod liver oil, vitamin C and D with me and he is seeing results in his cholesterol and has stopped the omeprazole.  Thank you Jesus.  That stuff is linked to many issues and they are even saying possibly dementia.

It is nice to be able to make a fresh home cooked meal at leisure at least once a day from fresh ingredients.  Yesterday I roasted in the oven 1 large butternut squash, 2 acorn squash, 2 onions, 1 sweet potation and 1 regular potato.  I spread out about 6 - 10 garlic cloves and drizzled with olive oil.  Sprinkle with sea salt.  Bake at 400 for 45 - 60 min.  I also separated all the seeds and roasted them with salt and pepper.  Then I let the vegetables cool slightly, scooped all the insides out, put it all together in a soup pot and simmered with about 6-8 cups of broth.  Then I added sprinkle of cayenne pepper and double sprinkle of curry powder (not sure how DH would like this) and some black pepper.  Then I pureed it with my immersion blender.  I use this gadget all the time.  mostly to blend soups.  But you can also whip cream, make pudding and smooth gravy with it.  He LOVED this soup!  We did garnish with the toasted seeds and some vinegar

Just holding steady is a victory for me, given my activity level and stress are way down.  But this will be 3rd week of 2 yoga classes and I will be golfing today.  I used to just force myself to do yoga or workout classes right after work.  It is much harder going after a day relaxing at home.  But I am adapting.

What are you going to do today to take care of yourself?

Monday, December 17, 2018

Challenge during my Challenge

Today is buy yourself flowers.  I bought myself some new yoga bras instead.  Yesterday was go the entire day without complaining.  Pretty sure I never complain!  Yeah, right.  So, I will give myself credit for that challenge.  Today I have to send off my phone to be replaced.  So I will have no phone for several days!!!  What?  Crazy.  DH is taking it harder than I.  I am actually sort of curious.  Think it will be mixed blessing.

Day 18 is make time for a wholesome breakfast.  I don't have breakfast.  But I will adapt by having a smoothie each day for lunch.  This will be my first entire week to do so, and I am noticing.  Feel great!  My test from specialist came back normal and he is agreement that I can continue to treat through diet and not take medicine!  So awesome!

Day 19 is do one thing you have been putting off.

Day 20, the last day is Don't Overthing, practice being present.

I will try to post every day still.  From my laptop.  But tomorrow is golf.  So, might be Wednesday.
Have a great week.  This is the last full week before Christmas.  Easy for me to say, I do not have kids.  But I buy for friends, friends' kid and children in the family.  Enjoy this week.  Stop and just be.  Be mindful.  Be present.  I am going to be asking God to help remind me of priorities and be grateful!

Saturday, December 15, 2018

Down Day

Wednesday evening DH took our large SUV back to the city to sell.  His brother owns business in busy area.  It is parked out in front.  Plus, research shows a decent 4wd SUV no rust, gets higher price up there. 

Wed night I baked.  Thursday I drove with girlfriend to see our 2 good friends with cancer,  we had lunch and chatted.  Fun.  Stressful.  Plus it rained all day.   I was tired of driving,  esp in rain at night.

I got home 11pm to get my Christmas stuff ready to go up to city, see my aunts, granny, former coworker friend B and drive DH back home.  He golfed with his brother Thursday.  

I took pup with me both days.  It is heartbreaking seeing our 2 friends going thru this.   And their families.  Part of the sadness getting to point in life when you start losing contemporaries is seeing the sadness of your group of buddies suffering along besides us.

I had wonderful visit back hometown, then city Friday.  DH and I fell asleep front of TV early last night!

Today, yoga and TV.  Along with hot tea and few cookies.  Life is good. 

Coincidentally, wellness challenge day 13 is send encouraging text to 5 people.  Done.  Encouraged my aunt in her support of her sister and have texted more than 5 of my childhood friends in this cancer experience.   And just now texted my city neighbors and told them I was thinking of them...today one year ago the buried their daughter.

Hug your loves tight.  And if that's not possible,  let your memories comfort you.

Day 14, wake up early to pray.   Done.  Day 15...plan a smoothie or tea date with a friend.  We are going to eat with parents in law tomorrow.

P.S.  we got a text from BIL...SUV sold in 1 day!  Thank you Lord!

Wednesday, December 12, 2018

Appreciate Each Day


Wellness challenge for today is to unsubscribe from unnec emails.  Already done.  To me, electronic clutter is just as bad as actual clutter.  I keep off many mailing lists as much as possible, physical mailing (no catalogs, no magazines).  I always unsubscribe email lists.  When they ask at the store, my friend gave me a good idea for a response.  I just politely say "decline" when they ask for email or phone number.

The phone trolling is just out of control.  DH and I are getting 2-6 calls a day from unknown phones.  We don't answer.  I am convinced they more you answer, the more you get.
I have done some cooking making and baking.  2 fails.  One new recipe and one old.  I will just freeze and eat this winter when I am desperate for baked coods and too lazy.  My DH said I must be distracted.  I am pretty preoccupied with my online sales.  I am thinking this is not a fit for me.  This first year of retirement may be a big exercise in just what is right for me - and I will gladly take that.

Yesterday DH and I took the pup and went to a state park the next state over, we could not believe how cool this area was.  We were the only ones there for quite a while, making Tuesdays a natural exploration day going forward.  There was a large waterfall and the trails all around it where made to explore it at all different heights.  It was quite a find!  Then I dropped my phone and cracked the screen.  God's way of telling me to stop taking photos and just be in the moment.  That was what our instructor was telling us in yoga class Monday night.  Message received.  Could explain my "baking" fails too.

Another way this message is being driven home for me...another of our childhood friends has been diagnosed with terminal cancer.  I need to enjoy each day to the fullest.
Getting ready to cook some pork chops for DH before he leaves to drive to the city to play golf with his brother and take our SUV that we are selling.  Wish me luck!  I am having kitchen challenges!

Monday, December 10, 2018

Day 10, Wellness Challenge

Today for the wellness challenge, it is get rid of 5 things you don't need.

I have been mercilessly cleaning out extra physical stuff as we have been here, retired 2 months and one week.  I take about a car load a week to Goodwill.  I even went throught my Christmas decorations early and donated my last big tree last Monday.  I need to go through my crafts chest next.  But, there is not much left.

I am going to do the Home Organization Challenge in January with Bowl Full of Lemons blog/FB page.  I want to streamline my cleaning and organizing in a fun, useful way.  That would be in a group sharing with others.

I also plan to find a church and start going Sunday Mornings.  I still enjoy my daily devotional and Psalm 31 materials, but want a little more.  I do want to share a very special photo of a painting today.  My Granny did this and dedicated it to the memorial of my grandfather.

Dr. Tony Evans:  "Dear Heavenly Father, thank You for sending Your Son, Jesus Christ, to come in order that He might provide the pathway to You, for me and all those who trust in Him. Thank You for the multitude of blessings You have given to me over the course of my life. Please gently nudge me and remind me if I start to get so busy that I forgot to honor and worship You with my thoughts, words or actions. You are the reason for the focus of this season, and I want to remember that throughout this month. I worship You, Lord, for You are holy, powerful, restoring and the source of my very life. In Jesus’ Name, Amen."

Amen.

Have a great week.  The things I am doing without today are 1)  worry, 2) fear, 3)  judgment, 4)  doubt and negativity.

Sunday, December 9, 2018

Day 9

Today challenge item was watch the sunset.  I did just after walking the pup.  Sitting relaxing now.  We had no severe weather despite all the warnings - reminds us of the weather scare tactics we had up in the city.

I am having some lingering sore joints including my left low back.  Hopefully yoga this weekI can focus on it.

I made 2 kinds of cookies today to freeze till closer to Christmas.   If I don't get my cards done soon, that's not going to happen.

Hope you are getting some recharging done this Sunday.

Saturday, December 8, 2018

December One Week In

Friday I had coffee with friends, got manicure and talked to a guy who has couple insurance agencies in the area.  He got my resume off Linked In.  I never took my resume down or inactivated my profile.  So when he called, I listened to what he had to say.  He asked if I could come by one of these days.  I did.  I liked him and think he would be good to work for.   Just not convinced I want to work and DH definitely does not want me to. 

I suggested if I did at least PT, we could preserve his IRA instead of drawing it down.  He replied what good is money if he can't use it to have time together.  I tend to agree.  For the first time in my life,  making money is not my priority.

Saving money...not spending much...making a bit iof pocket change while thrift shopping...well, that is different.

Today for the challenge I made an epic salad.  After the pup and I had a brisk walk in the 30's.

1 bag pasta cooked
1 can black eyed peas
1 can pinto beans
1 can black beans
1 cup frozen corn, thawed
1 cup salsa
1 cup mayo
1/2 milk (I used almond)
1/4 diced pickled jalapeno
Shredded cheese (optional)
Chopped green onion

DH said he did not think he would like it, but he likes anything with green onion.

We also had venison burgers smoked on the smoker, roasted veggies and carrot soup.  I am trying to get us to eat more veggies and less carbs/meat.

It was good.  Now, TV and a fire in the wood stove.  The winter mix advisory appears to have missed us, but it was grey and windy here today.

Would not rather be anywhere but here.  Stay warm out there!

Friday, December 7, 2018

5 Frugal Things

I read the Non Consumer Advocate blog.  On 12/5 Katy wrote Five Frugal Things post and asked readers what 5 frugal things they did.

I actually had a few this week.  1)  I repaired a $7 rug that my pup chewed.  2)  I made free Christmas decorations I could string lights on...2 tomato cages and one topiary that I wound our grape vine around.

3)  I cooked a sweet potato before it went bad and froze it in 4 sections for smoothies.  4)  I crocheted 2 neck warmers for my girlfriend who moved to a house with no backyard fence so she has to walk her dog in the cold several times a day.

5)  I made my own "photo light booth" to photo my stuff I list on PM and ebay.

For the Dec wellness challenge, I stayed off social medial a whole day and wrote down a list of short term goals (I always have lists going).  Tomorrow is make an epic, creative salad.  

This is a challenge I can get behind!

Have a Fantastic Friday!

Thursday, December 6, 2018

Temptation

Whoo weeee.  I w as so tired from 2nd power yoga that I went to bed early and slept late!

So, I better walk the dog before it gets yucky.  Supposed to be yucky for 3 days.  I switched out our 5 bulbs master bather 100 watt equivalent led.  Is bright!  That helps.

I need to watch my eating little better.  Gonna focus on really enjoying my smoothies for dinner for at least a week. Pretty much eat what I want at noon.

"I pray that I may be prepared for whatever temptation may come to me. I pray that I may see it clearly and avoid it with the help of God."
   -Hazelden Foundation

Well, the pup is waiting!

Wednesday, December 5, 2018

I Have Been Busy

But what I have accomplished...well, that remains a mystery.

Monday I made venison goulash and lemon bars and did power yoga. Since it was after December 1, Goodwill took my Christmas tree donation.  I had a large one and DH a large one when we married.  I donated them couple years ago.  This house had a fairly large one left in the attic.  I am going to find a really slim one.

I decided to duck in and take a look at shoes.  I found several nice brands, no or very light wear.  I bought 6 pair for $45.  I listed 3 for over $100.

I set up spreadsheet for my 2 consign projects.  I am selling for 2 disabled people and just taking expenses and 10%.

Tuesday we had to go to other side of county.  I popped in another.   Bingo.  I found Stuart Weitzman,  Lucky Brand,  Vince Camuto,  Cole Haan, Merrell, Nine West...basically perfectly condition.  Guess I will see if I can make some fun money.  I spent $15 on 3 more jeans and $40 tues.  My outlay is now $100.

I paid one client his $100 for 6 pair of jeans I sold.  He was pretty happy.  And gave me another pair...of Levi's with tags still on them.

Jeans are $5 and shoes $4 (and go on up) at Goodwill.  I sold a bunch over the weekend...and not a darn thing since!

I am currently working on updating photos.   I made a very amateur "light box" with a light and filter to help my photographs.  Cross your fingers!

Dec 3 was take a walk...I will do tomorrow.   Was too cold yesterday and too busy today. Dec 4 call someone you love.  I called my Granny.

Today was clear your room or desk of clutter.  That's already done.  Tomorrow is take a social media sabbatical.   I will even stay off my phone tomorrow.   Be back here Friday!

Have a great Thursday!

Monday, December 3, 2018

December Wellness Challenge

Day 1 was go to bed an hour early.  I went to bed late after a long emotional day and 8 hours driving.  Then, I was up an hour early because I could not go back to sleep.

The benefit was wonderful but stressful, my sister and I are reminded of how much we miss my mom when we deal with cancer, and we were around many people at the event,  which zaps energy.  Especially difficult going back to our home town, where our mother passed away in 1991.

Was good to have a low key day Sunday.  I am happy to substitute something very meaningful for my extra hour of sleep.

We stopped by our childhood church and met the current minister.  We got a photo of both my mother's memorial stain glass window and we got a picture of my granny's memorial to my grandfather...a photograph of Jesus.  It is amazing.

I will do 2 days tomorrow and be caught up.  Sunday we make a list of 10 things we are grateful for:
  1.  Jesus
  2.  Love of my amazing man
  3.  Family
  4.  Friends
  5.  2nd chances
  6.  My dogs
  7.  Our comfortable, cozy, customized, organized, paid for house.
  8.  My health
  9.  My sense of humor
  10.  Our flannel sheets

Sunday, December 2, 2018

Happy December!

Here are photos of my indoor plants.



The Christmas cactus is blooming, right on schedule.  The cool watering can I got earlier this fall at an antique mall.

I like it because the long spout helps me water the plant (philodendron?) on top of living room bookcases and the other photo is the other indoor plants that perch on my tiled area where we used to have a fireplace.

I hope you are having a day filled with things you love.

I got back late last night from my friends benefit.  It was a great success.  I will write more on it later.

I will also post couple photos of some things at my hometown church very special to me.  First, I think it is a perfect time to take a little nap.  Have a great day!