Bouquet and Mother's Day

As a young person, I have done many nice things.  But mostly with fanfare and with expectations.  At least loudly.  For my nieces wedding, she carried a bouquet of some silk flowers and some handmade paper flowers.  I gave her a large bag of flowers and told her to help herself and get rid of whatever she did not use.  Included in this bunch were some of the ones that my grandmother, father and I bought for my dear late husband's funeral in 1993.  I have held on to them all these years, unable to let go.  This past winter I just got rid of his wallet.  Anyway, at the wedding Saturday I asked my neice what she had that was old - she said specifically the flowers from DLH funeral.  She never got to meet him, she was about 3 months old the first time I held her...at his funeral.  My heart is full.  Thank you Jesus.  What a way to spend Mother's Day and I know my mom was there, I could feel her too

A Break Already?

My longest break from blogging so far.  Busy working on a project at work.  Finished and did annual HCA on mine and DH to get $50 x2 on cards for prescriptions.  Then did online CE for insurance license and got that renewed.  Paid one other license.  Now I am ready to go home. 

I enjoy reading blogs.  I read a blog called A Cup of Jo and she asks everyone what they learned in 2017.  I like the post and I like the comments.  Some of them were inspiring.  I had a bad day yesterday, had a sort of disagreement with someone I was helping out.  I understand this comes with the territory, but it is still hard.  Is not my battle to fight...it is hers.  I just clean my side of the street.  I answered Jo's question as follows, still somewhat full of my new year's vigor which was almost extinguished in one tense conversation.  I have to learn not to let these things interfere with my joy (my word of 2017).

What did you learn this year?  A Cup of Jo
I learned that we are all connected in humanity and we are all of nature and essentially looking for the same things...shelter, water, food, safety...  By reminding myself that first and foremost I am a creature of nature and some things can be explained by science (I get depressed when my body is troubled, bad news accumulates in me and causes problems, I have tides and waves, even if I am not perfect I am still loveable (and loved), I am still learning, I still want to learn.  The more I learn, the better off I am.  The more I learn, the more open I am and the more open I am, the better I can learn to love others.  The more I love others, the more I can receive love back.  The more love I am capable of, the happier I am.  The happier I am, the more of service I can be and the more of service I am, the more I reflect the love and grace God has shown me through his son, Jesus.  P.S.  it's not always about me.