Cousin D response

Cousin D responded saying we should plan a girls' weekend and said she was currently job searching.  I told her that I would call her tomorrow.  She pointed out that Cousin's Day is July 24 so we are shooting for that weekend.  We have to do something cheap because she and I are both broke right now.

I am very surprised she is job searching.  This does not bode well for her plan to retire and have a wedding venue.  I suppose I will get filled in tomorrow.

My budget buster this summer is 1)  going to Arizona, and renting a car.  2)  starting back to work had some start up costs, such as food for work location, since I live here Sun - Thurs.  Parking and gym membership/yoga classes.  Also trying to figure it out, because I am not really sure where we went wrong, but clearly we are doing some emotional/feel good spending and we must get that rabbit back in its cage.  It looks like even with me working (I am saving 2/3 of my weekly pay to contrib to savings/Roth) it is going to take my month of July to get back to the black.

At least I am feeling like my weight loss is coming along.  I did not work out last night, left early to see my Granny (but postponed because she is a little puny and wanted me to come next week instead).  So since I left work early, I got myself and my friend T a smoothie and we met and had coffee talk.  Then on way home I bought my uncle (asked my aunt first) some rootbeer and we splurged on 3 shows together with some good ole fashioned cheese curls.  I stayed up too late (10pm - I know, so crazy) and today I was tired.  So, after work today, yoga and 1 tv show and to bed early.

DH is excited I am coming home tomorrow and so am I.  I am also excited that he was at Sam's today and I won't have to go.  So, we are going to celebrate with a little kayak ride this weekend. 

Happy Thursday, Friday is coming!

Saturday Shopping for Someone Else

Funny how enlightened I think I may have become through experience and old age, it is funny how fast we can revert.  I have been going through some really difficult times with my marriage and with my state of mind.  That has lead to my isolation and sent my hamster wheel spinning.

Essentially, my M.O. is to "run away" literally and figuratively when things are hard.  I know that is why I am not blogging much.  I am having hard time putting my thoughts together, let alone down in words.  This week, I had 3 days truly alone to process everything going on and discussions with my DH.

I feel better today.  I have sat with my problems in the light of day, ruminated over them with very few distractions and have come up with some plans for dealing with things.  One of the big problems, is that I really miss my job.  So, I don't know what will happen if they end up finding an assignment for me.  That is one of the things that I just pray about and realize until that day comes, there is nothing I can do about it.  In the meanwhile, I can be fierce in our money handling.

I am shopping today with my sister, for HER!  Not me.  I have been pretty good lately.  I am winding down my closet on Poshmark.  I am trying to sort of shut that down for the summer.  Even though I am pretty good at selling and getting a little mad money, let's be honest here...it makes me shop.  So, today just trying to focus on few tweaks to my wardrobe, getting rid of excess so I know what I actually do have and will use...and I am pretty much obsessed with gardening right now!

Have a nice weekend.  If you have stuck around and still stop by.  Thank you.  I value personal interaction like never before.

P.S.  My ankle and foot are much better!  I am going to be pretty sedentary one more week, which is also hard for me.  But I need it to heal correctly.

Thoughtful Thursday

Thinking of my DGM today, today is the anniversary of my father's death.  I know it is hard on her and on my brother and my dad's widow.  So for all of them I pause and say a prayer for peace and happy memories.  As for myself, I just try not to think to much on it and also pray for happy memories. 

I am going to have to search for NYC airline tickets soon and get those locked down.  Then DH and I will literally concentrate on paying off our 2 credit cards and putting a couple of his paychecks aside for Oct and Nov (we don't get his pension until end of Oct and SS until end of Nov).  He is not worried, I am a little.  We should get a check for his unused sick time and a check returning our money in escrow from city house.  Maybe even some from retirement house.  It is really hot and we need rain in the Midwest.  I am usually ready for fall by the end of June.  While I am at it, I can add patience to my list of prayers!  LOL. 

I have not done it for a while, but my stop and smell the roses lately is just lounging in our meat locker cold hotel room and just accepting...don't focus on the unfortunate part of this experience and we have been enjoying fruit and salads/smoothies, cool meals.  I especially enjoy relaxing after my late but still hot walks I am now doing at 8pm.  I am loving the long days still, but noticed that last night it was pitch black at 9:15.  Tonight I am having a relative help me with my flights search (my internet is bad at hotel), so I will enjoy a visit with her after work. 

What are you doing to take care of yourself?  Hope you have a moment to relax today.

"Come to me, all who labor and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you, and learn from me, for I am gentle and lowly in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy, and my burden is light.” Matt 11:28-30